The entire way to the hospital I am crying and praying to God that she be okay. I had no clue what I was going to find out at the hospital and of course I was thinking the worst.
When we got to the hospital I was told that she would undergo several tests including blood, urine, x-ray, EKG and ct scan. They also mentioned that she may need to have a spinal tap. Casey has never had anything like this before and so this was going to be her first experience with needles. She was scared to death and of course that didn't help me to see her like that. She screamed bloody murder when they did the IV and that broke my heart. After they got it in she calmed down and was a big girl the rest of the time.
All of her tests came back normal so as of now it appears that there was no good reason why this happened. The doctors told me that she could have more in the future or that she may never have another again. It was mentioned that if she did have another, she would be treated for epilepsy. I did not like hearing that. The ER doctor wanted her to be seen by a neurologist. We will be getting an appointment with one in Topeka hopefully sooner than later.
So as of now we know nothing. We have no clue what caused the seizure or if she will have another one. It could be months before she sees the neurologist too. It is all very stressful.
But something positive came out of all this. I realized (even though I already knew) that I would not have been able to handle all this if I didn't know God. Despite the situation we were blessed in several ways. The hospital staff were amazing with Casey. They were sweet and gentle with her and took time to explain everything to her so she would understand. Everyone from the admitting nurse to the radiology techs to the doctors showed her love and compassion and as a mother I couldn't have asked for better. Their treatment of her made the whole experience bearable. In addition to that, I was blessed with understanding daycare parents. They were willing to be flexible with my need to take time off to take care of her where some jobs wouldn't be. Not only did they find other care for their children, they offered prayer for her. And last was my family and friends. Casey had so many people praying for her the last few days and that alone is an incredible blessing. I have had numerous calls and texts from friends and family checking on Casey and myself. The love I have felt the last few days is incredible. We are so lucky to have so many people in our lives that personally know God.
I don't know how people who don't have a personal relationship with God handle difficult situations. God doesn't promise us that we won't suffer but he does promise us that when we do he will be with us. It's like the poem Footprints, "The Lord replied, My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
God carried me on Thursday and I know he is always with me. I am blessed to know Him and to have Him in control of my life.
